The present is the gift!
The sentiment HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY makes me cringe and I know that each of my four children shies away from this or any other day that honours their mom. It isn’t because we don’t love each other, it’s just that we are a little less guided by some acceptable society rule that says we have to buy a gift and send a card to say I LOVE YOU... Sometimes my kids are angry at me, sometimes they are busy living their lives... I know my kids love me and I am not hurt by any slight or overlook of what day it is. I have worked on my own personal mother issues and have found a place where I am comfortable and at peace with what was, what is/isn’t and what will or won’t be. Just as I have had to, my kids will also have to work through it for themselves...
This is not an apology, because just like all the rest of us beings here, I am muddling through and doing the best that I can with what I have. Sometimes I fail as a mom – I don’t always say the right things, I don’t always look my best, I have curves and more filling around the edges, I have scars, stretch marks and wrinkles, I don’t wear makeup or get my hair done, and I have a history... I have a life well lived and I have lived life well, my scars, stretch marks and wrinkles tell my story...
I love my kids, animals, food, music, letters and the door being held open for me! Some people love me, some people like me, some don’t. I’ve been up and down on this journey, I’ve done good things for others and I’ve done good things for myself and sometimes, I’ve done not so good.
I follow my intuition, my heart and sometimes the crazy side of me acts before thinking things through. I am random, eclectic and a little bit funny. I am also real, easily bored and always looking for some new challenge. I won’t pretend to be someone I’m not – I can drop the f-bomb as needed but I can also soothe a child to sleep with a soft lullabye – I am who I am and love me or not, I love you with all my heart.
I have lived this life fully and well, despite it all...
Who I AM...